I'm tired.. tired of everything.

Tired of being compared with others all the time. Tired of hearing how other people's children are doing, how disciplined they are, how well they score. Just so you know, all those do not matter to me at all.

I'm big enough to know what I'm doing. If they can stay at home and study all the time, just as you wish, then that's their problem. I have my own way of doing well. I'm someone who believes that those that succeed are not bookworms. With internet available, the world does not need walking dictionaries.

I'm tired of always trying to live up to the high expectation that is being set for me. Frankly speaking, I do not like all those at all, be it coming from classmates, lecturers, or even my parents. I get tired because of that, I get stressed out because of that, because of trying to meet those expectations, which are unnecessary.

Yes, I may not be the most pleasant son ever, the smartest ever, the most disciplined ever, but all this is because of the feeling that is building up inside of me. I do not know how to explain it, all I can say is I'm tired.

If only there was no expectations on me, I would have definitely done better than what I have achieved. You will never know a student's life.

And you wonder why am I always quiet at home.